Journal Entry 0002 - DELETED
Apr. 13th, 2015 06:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
depthlesslock [Long silence]
Everything's fucked up. I swear everything went from fairly normal to fubar in the space of less than twenty hours. I've seen single day jobs go to shit slower than this.
[Pause]
I'm playing three role in this and I rarely ever have to even play two. The others sometimes rib me for being too similar on jobs as when I'm at base, but I don't usually care. I'm not like Florida, although granted he's a rather extreme example here. I guess this is different to that though. I'm not being three different people, I'm just taking three different sides to this. [Amused snort] Just realised there's three strengths of lying. Not lying at all to Delta, half lying to Sigma 'cause I really do want to try and help him, I just can't tell him all that I know. And then lying completely to Florida.
He'll find out. Probably already knows. Hopefully, since it's a low paying job, he won't be too mad at me. Hopefully.
[Sound of chair creaking]
Fuck. The whole Ai family... I hope things sort out for them. I don't know how, I don't even know if it would be possible at all, but I hope they find a way to make it work. I know Delta's mad, and I get why he left - sort of - but at the same time, I can't help but keep thinking of the fact that he left six kids over an argument he had with one. Those kids I saw with Sigma in the park... How are they reacting to all this? It can't be good. Sigma's completely broken up about the whole thing and he's the third - fourth? - oldest.
Sigma... Fucking hell, it's hard to lie to him like this. It shouldn't be, I've known the guy less than a week! But... God, I just want tell him that Delta's okay. Tell him where he is. It wouldn't help completely, but it might help a bit. He's gonna hate me if he finds out-- when he finds out that I helped Delta hide. But if he didn't... If he forgave me and we carried on... I could love him. Yeah, I could see that. Quite easily, actually.
[Long silence]
[Sigh]
I need to delete this. If someone, namely Florida, found it... Nope, not even gonna think about that.
Signing out. Not that anyone will ever hear this. Does anyone listen to these things? Whatever.
York.
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Everything's fucked up. I swear everything went from fairly normal to fubar in the space of less than twenty hours. I've seen single day jobs go to shit slower than this.
[Pause]
I'm playing three role in this and I rarely ever have to even play two. The others sometimes rib me for being too similar on jobs as when I'm at base, but I don't usually care. I'm not like Florida, although granted he's a rather extreme example here. I guess this is different to that though. I'm not being three different people, I'm just taking three different sides to this. [Amused snort] Just realised there's three strengths of lying. Not lying at all to Delta, half lying to Sigma 'cause I really do want to try and help him, I just can't tell him all that I know. And then lying completely to Florida.
He'll find out. Probably already knows. Hopefully, since it's a low paying job, he won't be too mad at me. Hopefully.
[Sound of chair creaking]
Fuck. The whole Ai family... I hope things sort out for them. I don't know how, I don't even know if it would be possible at all, but I hope they find a way to make it work. I know Delta's mad, and I get why he left - sort of - but at the same time, I can't help but keep thinking of the fact that he left six kids over an argument he had with one. Those kids I saw with Sigma in the park... How are they reacting to all this? It can't be good. Sigma's completely broken up about the whole thing and he's the third - fourth? - oldest.
Sigma... Fucking hell, it's hard to lie to him like this. It shouldn't be, I've known the guy less than a week! But... God, I just want tell him that Delta's okay. Tell him where he is. It wouldn't help completely, but it might help a bit. He's gonna hate me if he finds out-- when he finds out that I helped Delta hide. But if he didn't... If he forgave me and we carried on... I could love him. Yeah, I could see that. Quite easily, actually.
[Long silence]
[Sigh]
I need to delete this. If someone, namely Florida, found it... Nope, not even gonna think about that.
Signing out. Not that anyone will ever hear this. Does anyone listen to these things? Whatever.
York.
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