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[depthlesslock]

[Hey, this is York. M'not around right now so leave a message.

If this is a client, please leave your details and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.

If this is one of the others, I'll get back to you whenever.

If it's Florida, I didn't do it.
 

Aaaand if it's anyone else... Just leave a message. I'll get back to you if I recognise you. Or even if I don't, and you sound cute.]

Comments

[depthlesslock]

...Why is that worse?

I uh... wow. Um... I'm glad we can still be friends. But... Actually no, I'm not going to say anything. I'd only make things worse again, wouldn't I?

[depthlesslock]

Fine.

[protective_logic]

Why is it worse?

Because he didn't consider my feelings at all, York. He didn't consider me at all in the answer. If it was done with the intent to hurt me then it was fair, considering what I did was clearly formed to hurt him, even if it was only a repercussion of a decision that needed made and no one could provide a suitable argument against. But to hurt one without intention means to have not considered the feelings of the person he was speaking to at all. Considering the conversation we were having at the time, it was the cruelest thing he could have done.

Speak your part if you will speak. There is nothing which can make this worse.

[protective_logic]

If you ever wish him to stop harassing you, stop dismissing you, and stop actively hating you, you must give him a reason to trust you with something as precious as the lives of those he loves.

[depthlesslock]

...Maine's not very good with words. He didn't mean to hurt you.

[protective_logic]

When your ex, during a conversation about your failed relationship, asks if you believe in second chances, yes or no is all that needs said. Even he can manage that. The fact that he hurt me was because, consciously or not, he desired to hurt me. Or couldn't give a fuck about how hie words might affect me.

As you say he didn't mean to give me the impression that I had a chance, despite both of us reading the statement as implying such, then he didn't think, didn't care to think, or failed to care enough to contemplate what those words would do.

When I hurt him, York, it was something that I knew would hurt him. I chose to speak anyway. I put a lot of thought into it. He didn't put any into hurting me. It was cruel. It was malicious whether intended to be or not, and it reinforces that my decision was a good one, because someone who could so easily hurt another like that should not be trusted around my siblings.

[depthlesslock]

I'm so sorry that he missed my role in rescuing Sigma from Charon. My bad that he didn't notice my coming to the house to make sure you were going to be okay when Florida threatened to gut you because of Louisiana. Apologies for introducing the twins to a new game that has, as I've been told, been played several times since. How can he ever forgive me for comforting Sigma after you and Omega had a fight and you ran away? Surely he can never trust me after I helped teat-sh Sigma self defense.

[protective_logic]

I would point out that you assisted in my leaving of my home.

It is your physical skills that he questions, York. Prove them and perhaps he will be less of an ass.

[depthlesslock]

I'm sorry.

[protective_logic]

As am I. I knew this would hurt me. Which is why I resolved not to care. I just... wasn't expecting such casual, thoughtless cruelty.

I hadn't thought this could hurt worse.

[depthlesslock]

Funny. I remember trying to talk you out of it and when you refused, my only part was to ensure you had a damn roof over your head.

Did I not mention my part in Sigma's rescue? Has he never wat-shed me train? Seen my damn records? He's never seen Wash on a mission, to my knowledge, and he has no damn problem with him.

[protective_logic]

No, he hasn't seen you train, he hasn't seen your records. He judges you harder because of Sigma's relationship with you.

[depthlesslock]

Can I help at all? Get you something? Do something?

[depthlesslock]

Well excuse us for fucking dating then!

If he can't be bothered to see me train or look at my records, that's his problem and not mine. It's stupid and actively dangerous to not know the techniques and abilities of your teammates, so he can go fail a mission because he can't get past the front door for all I fucking care.

[protective_logic]

What can one even do?

No. There is nothing to do, to be done, or that I would care to do. Why bother to care?

[protective_logic]

Alright. Don't be the bigger man.

[depthlesslock]

A distraction maybe? We never got around to wat-shing Cross Access together.

[protective_logic]

I don't think I care to watch that anymore.

[depthlesslock]

Wow. Really? That's what you're going to go with. The bigger man. From the shit he's pulling over me and the lack of decent reason why or any solid ground to stand his claims on, I'd say I already am.

[depthlesslock]

But we were going to try and find things the other hadn't noticed. It's a great film.

[protective_logic]

You run away from him. That isn't bigger. Being scared of him. Which is your right. Your choice. I will no longer involve myself in this conflict.

[protective_logic]

Try watching it with Sigma. He's very bright.

[depthlesslock]

I'm not scared of him, I'm scared of one thing that he can do. What a coward I am for avoiding someone that I take no pleasure in interacting with and who cares nothing for whether I get hurt or not.

[protective_logic]

What is it you think he can do?

[depthlesslock]

That's a really dumb reason. I want to wat-sh it with you.