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From:

depthlesslock

...Maine's not very good with words. He didn't mean to hurt you.

From:

protective_logic

When your ex, during a conversation about your failed relationship, asks if you believe in second chances, yes or no is all that needs said. Even he can manage that. The fact that he hurt me was because, consciously or not, he desired to hurt me. Or couldn't give a fuck about how hie words might affect me.

As you say he didn't mean to give me the impression that I had a chance, despite both of us reading the statement as implying such, then he didn't think, didn't care to think, or failed to care enough to contemplate what those words would do.

When I hurt him, York, it was something that I knew would hurt him. I chose to speak anyway. I put a lot of thought into it. He didn't put any into hurting me. It was cruel. It was malicious whether intended to be or not, and it reinforces that my decision was a good one, because someone who could so easily hurt another like that should not be trusted around my siblings.

From:

depthlesslock

I'm sorry.

From:

protective_logic

As am I. I knew this would hurt me. Which is why I resolved not to care. I just... wasn't expecting such casual, thoughtless cruelty.

I hadn't thought this could hurt worse.

From:

depthlesslock

Can I help at all? Get you something? Do something?

From:

protective_logic

What can one even do?

No. There is nothing to do, to be done, or that I would care to do. Why bother to care?

From:

depthlesslock

A distraction maybe? We never got around to wat-shing Cross Access together.

From:

protective_logic

I don't think I care to watch that anymore.

From:

depthlesslock

But we were going to try and find things the other hadn't noticed. It's a great film.

From:

protective_logic

Try watching it with Sigma. He's very bright.

From:

depthlesslock

That's a really dumb reason. I want to wat-sh it with you.

From:

protective_logic

I don't want to watch it. It will give me no pleasure.

From:

depthlesslock

Delta, please try to not let this wreck everything you enjoy.

From:

protective_logic

Do you believe I have not been trying to prevent that very thing for two months now, York?

Can you begin to fathom for even a second that maybe this isn't new? That I've been miserable for two months and the only reason I've done anything at all is because I do not have the luxury of taking time to 'heal', if such a thing is even possible? There no longer is anything I enjoy, so this specific instance cannot wreck anything at all.

From:

depthlesslock

You're making it sound like I haven't been present at all that entire time. I'm well aware that you're miserable and I've seen the effects of you suffering and it's been killing me that there's nothing I or anyone can do to help. I cannot express how sorry I am that you've reat-shed this point and I was above the clouds there was something that could be done to help. I'm sorry, Delta, I'm really so extremely sorry.

From:

protective_logic

There is nothing to be done for any of it. You have done no wrong at all. Only me. Maybe Maine to a small degree, but it's me. I am a poor influence on those around me.

From:

depthlesslock

Maine has done plenty wrong. Several people have involving this whole mess, including me. Just... let me know if I can do anything. Wat-sh the kids, get someone out of the house, drop off pizza, whatever.