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[depthlesslock]

[Hey, this is York. M'not around right now so leave a message.

If this is a client, please leave your details and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.

If this is one of the others, I'll get back to you whenever.

If it's Florida, I didn't do it.
 

Aaaand if it's anyone else... Just leave a message. I'll get back to you if I recognise you. Or even if I don't, and you sound cute.]

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[protective_logic]

Okay. Time... How much?

[depthlesslock]

I don't know. Maine might not either.

[protective_logic]

So I just wait and hold my breath that sometime there will be a ign that he might accept me again? Put my life on hold and pretend I'm not hurt? That I don't love him with all of my being? Sounds like punishment.

[depthlesslock]

At what point did anyone imply that your life had to go on hold or pretend you're not hurt. You can keep living your life, just imply your interest when he comes round or something.

[protective_logic]

I... Maybe.

[depthlesslock]

Do you want him back?

[protective_logic]

Desperately. I wanted a life with him, York. ALl of what comes with that.

[depthlesslock]

Then you're going to have to fight for it.

[protective_logic]

I've never been a fighter before.

[depthlesslock]

You've fought to keep your family safe. I know this is new for you, but there are similarities.

[protective_logic]

It's not the same. I pushed him away for my family.

[depthlesslock]

So let him know what's t-shanged for you, why you want him back despite why you pushed him away.

[protective_logic]

I told him I couldn't handle seeing him. Because it hurt, and I love him. Isn't... I don't understand all of this. It's so strange.

[depthlesslock]

Then he already knows you still love him.

D. I'll help. If you're willing to give this a shot, I've got your back the whole way.

[protective_logic]

I... told him that I'd be more comfortable either when I stop loving him or stop hating myself.

[depthlesslock]

So wit-sh are you going to do?

[protective_logic]

I've gotten to the point where I don't know how to not hate myself.

[depthlesslock]

If you try to win him back and succeed, would that at least help?

[protective_logic]

He wouldn't let me hate myself.

[depthlesslock]

Then it's up to whether you're willing to try.

[protective_logic]

Did... you know that I wasn't the one to initiate the relationship? He... Hell, he pretty much took me out and told me after that it was a date.

[protective_logic]

I... I love him. But I can't make that first move. I hurt him, and while I'd dedicate my life to making that up to him, I will never do anything that would feel like pushing myself on him after all I've done.

[depthlesslock]

I didn't know that.

The way I see it, D, he's already made the first move by telling you what he did.

[protective_logic]

You'll help me, right? I don't know how to do this

[depthlesslock]

I will, I promise. Anything you need, just let me know.